Card of the day 2/18/2018

Todays card of the day is brought to you by the Chrysalis tarot and is the Nine of Scrolls.
Self emptying brought about by suffering.  This isnt long term suffering or long night of the soul this is the suffering that prompts introspection.  The "burr under the saddle" type of suffering.  So, how to we self empty?  Funny, this is one of my favorite things...autolysis...the destruction of the self.  
Why would we want to destroy the self?  What?  The thing we relate to as "self" is really ego. 
Ego gets a bad rap imo.  Ego is just the storyteller of our lives.  Ego tells us where we belong, who we are and what we need to do to be more comfortable in our skin.  Everyone wants to get rid of ego...its very fashionable.  Sometimes we need to examine ego, to determine if ego is giving us  the right story.  
We see the angel with the many scrolls succumbing to the emotion that "ego emptying" can bring.  My famous saying: "write, write, write till you see the light"  Write about what though?  Write about your memories...get your memories and attitudes and hurts and ideas and all of the things you belive about yourself and your place in the world out of your head and onto paper.  Write with abandon.  Write gobbledygook...it will come, the deep dark shadow and the bright bright light that is you.  
Why in the world would you want to do this evocative exercise?  For insight, to know where you are coming from, to understand why you do what you do and where your attitudes and beliefs come from and where you are being blocked.  Trust me, your life will change.  You will feel renewed and redirected.  You will also feel surprised and ask more than once, "where in the world did THAT come from???"  Good Luck!  ~Mamma Moon